The Nightmare: An Abortion Testimony

By Julie Worzella

The nightmare was the same: holding a lifeless baby boy, burned, chest and head sunk in, about 10 inches long. Each time I woke up only to find that it was not just a nightmare but a replay of what had happened months earlier.

I’m Julie Worzella a co-founder and Executive Director of Destiny Point Women’s Restoration Home. This is a part my story that helps to drive a passion within me to see hurting women in Wisconsin not only become survivors but overcomers and conquerors of their purpose, plans, dreams and visions that were instilled within them long before they were even born. A passion to see “hope” restored for their lives and the lives of their children and families.

I received a call about a person close to me; “Kari” was in the hospital. The baby had a defect, and would not live long after he was born. I considered myself pro-life, but wasn’t sure whether it was better for the baby to terminate the pregnancy or for him to die soon after. During the hour and a half ride to the hospital, I found myself crying and praying. Praying the best I knew how (I did not know the Lord very well). Praying for “Kari”, for the baby, and for myself.

When I got there I found “Kari”, alone, having strong aggressive contractions. Several hours ago they injected her with a strong saline solution to kill the baby and then they induced labor. They had to induce her a second time because her body was not ready to give up that baby. After “Kari” had become totally exhausted from hours of violent contractions they sedated her. When she awoke, I was hoping I would hear a little cry from that little boy, and if he was to die after he was born, hoping to hold him until that time would come.

But my hopes disappeared when “Kari” came out of the bathroom; she said the baby was in the toilet. Nothing in my life has prepared me for what I would see that day. I ran in and scooped him out and wrapped his lifeless body in a towel. Even though he was only 16 weeks old, he had everything that a full term baby had right down to his eyelashes and fingernails. As the doctor had suspected some of his internal organs were growing outside his body.

Among the perfect features on a newborn baby was the destruction of the “termination.” His skin was burnt and his chest and head were sunk in. I found out later through research that this deadly mixture of saline solution and the violent contractions was guaranteed to accomplish the results of an abortion. The saline solution burns the baby inside and out, while the violent contractions crush the soft bone of the head and ribcage. Even though it was legal and was described “the best thing to do,” that little guy died a violent death, and in turn a part of “Kari” died that day. And she has not yet recovered.

“Kari” was abused as a child and struggled with her own self-worth, but since the abortion, she has become addicted to alcohol, committed adultery, and recently divorced. She is searching to fill a void in her life and a way to ease the pain. Hope was lost for that child and in turn hope for her own future. It took me years of pain and questioning the Lord, “Why was I there Lord, even though I helped “Kari” through the labor, the baby died, and died a violent death, and “Kari’s” pain was steadily getting worse? What good could possibly come from this?”

The pain of scooping my own 12 week old son out of the toilet after I had miscarried 13 years earlier had come back to mix with the pain of “Kari’s” child. And to top it off, approximately three months after abortion, a photograph of Samuel Armas came out. A surgeon was performing surgery on Samuel while he was still in the uterus! Little Samuel's hand reached out of the uterus and grabbed the surgeon’s finger! Praise God for little Samuel, but too late for “Kari’s” baby. BUT GOD! Yes but God will make all things work together for good….

It is not my heart to condemn anyone that has or may terminate her pregnancy. These women (and men) are hurting enough. And neither does God wish to condemn them. He extends His grace, mercy and forgiveness for our mistakes, failures and sin through His son Jesus for those who believe (Romans 4:25).

What the Lord wants is for us is to walk with Him, see what He sees, rejoice when He rejoices, and weep when He weeps. “Kari’s” baby boy did not die in vain. For the Lord has not only given me a passion to help women through their traumas such as abortion, addiction and abuse, but He also given me a voice to help others see what God sees everyday, and in some small way feel a part of the pain he must feel witnessing 4,000 violent abortions a day, most preformed out of convenience or as a form of birth control. All done because a loss of hope for that child’s future. Mankind is the Lord’s precious creation. He formed us and blew His Breath into us (Genesis 2:7) and made us in His image (Genesis 1:26).

Even those babies with defects, are created by Him. They are not a mistake. Nothing else that He has ever created received this kind of love and care, not His plants or animals. God’s Word said that He does not change. He is the same yesterday, today and tomorrow (Hebrews 13:8). Human life, babies, adults, elderly, you and I are still as precious to Him today as it was when He first created Adam and Eve.

We have been bombarded with campaign ads, promises and sometimes misleading information. Our responsibility as Christians and Catholics is to search out the truth and the candidate’s past voting records on Legislation and bills cannot tell a lie. One of the candidates was the only member of the Senate who voted three times against legislation--that would provide medical care to a baby surviving an abortion which puts him to the left of all Senators. His opposition to banning partial-birth abortion in which the baby is delivered all the way except for the head and then killed, places him 17 out of 47 Democratic Senators.

At July 2007’s Planned Parenthood conference, he promised: "The first thing I will do as President is sign the Freedom of Choice Act." This law, if passed and signed, will strike down every current restriction on abortion within all 50 states including parental notification and restrictions on Partial Birth Abortion. Despite the downplaying of the abortion issue, most Americans want restrictions on abortion and the one candidate’s 100% pro-abortion voting record goes against our beliefs.

Women like “Kari” are waiting for our help. If you find it in your heart to give please send it to 6983 Grotto Ave, Rudolph WI 54475. Our website is www.destinypoint.org. God Bless You!